The day ended well though. Dustin took the day off for the ultrasound and it ended up being good that he was home to help me with the kids. He bought groceries and made dinner. It was wonderful and I love him.
Today, yesterday was still weighing on my mind and I didn't like that. Today is also Groundhogs Day. Not a special or amazing day on any terms. Just a fun day. A day where, when you are in kindergarten you get to make silly hats and when you are an adult you get to watch Bill Murray kill himself over and over again until he realizes what life is really about.

Instead of repeating the day over and over again.. because I don't live in a movie.. I made a list of things that I love right now, things that make me happy. Don't feel like you have to read them all. Some are funny, all are true, but they are for me.
That Luke carries three binkies around with him. One in each hand and one in his mouth, switching them up every once and a while.
Reading up on my Chadburn relatives from St. Thomas, in preparation for this.
This article about the Nelson family's performace and Mark's reaction to being called called a "little cowboy" --- "I'm not a very little cowboy, I'm a big cowboy!!"
Watching the kids and Dustin play Mario Brothers.
When Mark talks about his primary teach, Sister Boren and calls her "Sister Boring" -- although I would die if she knew that.
Allie's list of things for us to do on our next girls day -- eting, noo clos, crafs, nal pallish. Go to Mscet, Sajorj and Losfagis. (Eating, new clothes, crafts, nail polish. Go to Mesquite, St. George and Las Vegas)
Pinterest.
That five minute window you get in the mornings to snuggle with your busy toddler before they are really awake and into everything.
Listening to Allie play the violin.
Having Family Home Evening.
Freshly waxed eyebrows and girl talk with my cousin.
The beadboard Dustin just installed in my kitchen (squueee!) and the bench he is making for our entry way.
When Estefan and Mark create amazing things out of legos and line them all up in a big lego parade.
Croutons.
Feeling the baby move.
When Luke runs to me with his arms out.
When Chekhov saw the long winter, he saw a winter bleak and dark and bereft of hope. Yet we know that winter is just another step in the cycle of life. But standing here among the people of